God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?Numbers 23:19
My Lord is constant. Unchanging. I on the other hand am inconsistent, unreliable, persistently relapsing to my flesh.
Why am I so relieved and elated when a loved one turns away from evil? Heaven rejoices and so do I.
Why am I so disappointed and deflated when my loved one returns to error? “As a dog returns to it own ejectum.”
What If my perception was neutral in either case. (Is numbness to another’s condition God’s intention for me? Of course not!) That my boat won’t rock in either sense – in joy or mourning for another’s condition. Is it my fault either way? No. Is it Gods fault? No. Is it about me at all? Not whatsoever.
But I am invested in the Kingdom (of God) which is forever. Once a loved one finds God it is never the case there won’t be trouble. It is always the case that God will never fail to complete His good work.
“…being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”Philippians 1:6
Conclusion: My deflation is related to my disappointment which originates in fear and expectation. Perfect love abides no fear. (And perfect love harbors no expectation.) Love and trust and then: I will not be moved. I will not be shaken. I will stand.
“God forbid that I should boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ…”